A Curse Named Love

Curse of Curves

I've got the gift of one liners

And you've got the curse of curves

And with this gift I compose words

And the question that comes forward

Are you perspiring from the irony

Or sweating to these lyrics

And this just in

You're a dead fit

But my wit won't allow it

The inside lingo had me at hello

And we go where the money goes

The inside lingo had me at hello

And we go where the money goes

I want someone provocative and talkative

But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower

And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams

"Touch her! Touch her!"

And she's got the curse of curves

So with the combination of my gift with one liners

And my way

My way with words

It seems I'm too hip to keep tight lipped

And you're on the gossip team

You're making something out of nothing

And jealousy's the cousin, the cousin of greed

The inside lingo had me at hello

And we go where the money goes

The inside lingo had me at hello

And we go where the money goes

I want someone provocative and talkative

But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower

And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams

"Touch her! Touch her!"

And she's got the curse, the curse of:

From what I've heard with skin you'll win

We all have teeth that can bite underneath

To where the reality grows

Yeah, that's where mine go

That's where mine go

We all have teeth that can bite underneath

To where the reality grows

Yeah that's where mine go

Where the reality grows

From what I've heard with skin you'll win

And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

I want someone provocative and talkative

But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower

And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams

"Touch her! Touch her!"

And she's got the curse, the curse of:

From what I've heard with skin you'll win

With skin you'll win

Skin you'll win

They Died for Vengeance | | | For the Sake of Revenge, Lead Us to Death

Through the Back.

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Sometimes things never change. Sometimes everything changes. Sometimes it's all the same, changing and the same all at once. I find this hindering to a life. Whatevs.

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I was led to believe that I was friends with certain people. So, when one of these people told me of a dilemma, I sympathized. Against the better judgement I'd had for the past few months. But then they decided to go and blame me for their incident because, apparantly, I'm an 'asshole and a stoner.' Hahah! Wow... Obviously that person is the asshole and stoner, 'cuz they're blatantly being a fucker, and obviously very misled in what they believe. Whatever. This is why I drop these kinds of people from my life. Anyone with 'em--- Don't need it. I'm not a part of this ridiculous drama anymore. It's nice to see you people from time to time; I have no part of your lives. You don't want me in them, I don't want to be in them, we're all good.

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In other news--- I'm having a spectacualr life! :D I've got alot of cool friends down here at college! I've been gettin' some good hours in for work, regardless of the bullshit that happens in that department of my life. I'm gettin' back up there with my homework.. :P Aaaaand.... Of course---

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Shelbi [: Idk... She's just so... wonderful. She's so perfect for me. She's a normal person. She's just like everyone else, except that she's just like me ^.^ More than anyone I've ever met.. Even Elias!! :o I know, right?? But yes. Her and I get closer EXPONENTIALLY everyday. We talk about everything on our minds.. Even when I don't wanna talk about things.. When Zoey and I dated, she would always ask me what was wrong and I would NEVER tell her, but... I dunno.. I feel like I can just trust Shelbi not to get upset or think I'm stupid or anything like that!!! Everything between her and I is absolutely incredible. I've never felt so right with someone in my life before [: Coincidentally--- Since I first met Shelbi, I've never felt like I belonged with someone more than her. Which!!! Brings me to a nice revelation!

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Zoey Groman. As most know, I was completely caught up in her. In honesty, though, alot of things happened during that relationship. Things that no one knows about. 'Cept for me and Elias. And other people involved. Just 'cuz Elias is the only person I ever told. Not to sound like I went around and just cheated on Zoey or somethin' all over the place. Just. Stuff that truly showed how fuckin' unstable that relationship was. Now, even through all the shit that happened with that chick, I still felt as if I was MEANT to be with her. And, now, I realize I was. Just not meant to be with her INDEFINITELY. If it wasn't for Zoey, I would've never been so perfectly fit for Shelbi [: Zoey got me into alot of things that fit me so well to my darling. Converse, bands, stuff like that. In fact, every MAJOR relationship I've been in, I've felt as if I was MEANT to be with those people. Zoey. Chantelle. Steph. Cassie. Ashley. But, I WAS meant to be with them. I was meant to be with them so they could help me become the person that could fit so well in the end with Shelbi.

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So!! I must say that I am extremely thankful to those people that helped me become who I am!!! Even if one of them absolutely hates me :D Ah well!

Anywho... I've gotta get at least ONE essay out today :P Plus I got my SI for the Soc. Prob. Exam #1 tonight!!!!!!! Gotta be ready for that thing tomorrow!!!

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*Peace*

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'I'll wait for you there, like a stone. I'll wait for you there alone.'

Heat In Trust

First Time by: Life House

We're both looking for something

We've been afraid to find

It's easier to be broken

It's easier to hide

Looking at you, holding my breath,

For once in my life, I'm scared to death,

I'm taking a chance, letting you inside.

Feeling alive all over again,

As deep as the sky, under my skin

Like being in love, she says

For the first time

Maybe I'm wrong,

But I'm feeling right where I belong

With you tonight

Like being in love

To feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you

Waiting to come to life

Waking me up to dreaming

Reality in your eyes

Looking at you,

Holding my breath,

For once in my life

I'm scared to death,

I'm taking a chance,

Letting you inside.

I'm feeling alive all over again

As deep as the sky that's under my skin

Like being in love, she says, for the first time

Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right

Where I belong with you tonight

Like being in love to feel for the first time

We're crashing

Into the unknown

We're lost in this

But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again

As deep as the sky that's under my skin

Like being in love, she says, for the first time

Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right

Where I belong with you tonight

Like being in love to feel for the first time

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****More later [; ****

****PEACE!****

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Grey Wolves, Red Blood, Black Clothes, White Bones

SO! Been a little while, but just a little [: I'm gonna start this off with sayin' "What the helll?!" Look at that frickin' Rubik's 360!!!!! I just got that this weekend, courtesy of my father!!! [: It's insaneeeee!!! In addition, I finally got a 4x4 cube and can now solve cubes that are 2x2, 3x3, 4x4, AND 5x5. Plus 3x3's with faces.. ;P Anywho.. I've had amazing days lately... ^.^ Some off putting ones.. But days that are good, today for example, make it all worth it [: Not much details to talk about out loud, but, stilll veryyyyyyy incredible :D


Well! Right now, I SHOULD be workin' on the essays/journals I didn't have time to work on this weekend, all of which I need to turn in tomorrow/ this morning.. -_- BUT! Thanks to my need to stay up to do this, I purchased 5-hour energy in an attempt to see if it worked, as everyone else so claims. And it hella did!!! Practically instantly! And, with that, I was inspired! My inspiration involved me deciding to get tattoos and a piercing/s!!!!! Here we go!!!!

I plan for this to go on prolly the back of one of my shoulders ^.^ It's basically a tattoo to memorialize Shelbi, but at the same time, if something happens between us [I certainly hope not], it's not like I got her name tattooed on my body... -_- Not sure what size I want quite yet... :P I got some time though [: Moving on----

I want this on like, an ankle or something [: Not too big or anything, just enough to be able to tell that it's a rubik's cube, and that it looks really bad ass [; Basically, I want the tattoos so that they're not blatantly in the open, for my future theater career. [: Tattoos can be a hindrance in landing roles if they're limiting to a role, etc. But these ones are really cool and can easily be concealed ^.^ Otay! Onto the piercing! ;D

Bam! This is what I want [: A lip piercing :D I'm currently debating on just gettin' my right side pierced, or getting the snakebite look, like in this photo ^.^ Much thanks to one of my besties, Heather Todd [: , for aiding me in my piercing connundrum {: So!!! Time for some interaction [; I need some input on what I should do for the piercing. Right side? Snakebite? What do you guys think???? Lemme know!! :D

Well! There's my little update [: BTW- I'm planning on doing a 3-step process. Meaning--- 1 of these every 2 weeks, AKA-- Each paycheck [: Which means!!! Step 1 willl be this weekend!!! Well... Hopefully :P Furthermore, Step 1 is the piercing [; So!!! Please comment soooooon!!!!! ^-^ Welll, time to finally go do that work!!!!

Peace!!!!!

PS--- I'm now about 65% ready for what's comin'... [: Before I was about 30% ready, than 70% nervous. Now it's practically flipped completely! :D Plus, I now know how soon it'll be upon me. About one week, a little less... -_- But, now I have so much more confidence [: A'ight.

Peace!!! Finally, Again. [:

Drowsy, Bloody, Crazy

Welp. Looks like I'll be off to bed soon. Did some of that work I had to do.. Then lookin' over my stuff, I see that it looks like I forgot to get something turned in on Friday that was due... -_- I don't even know at this point.. Honestly. English is giving me more trouble than any other class. I typicaly enjoy English, but I really can't wait to be done with that class...

So.. I'm tryin' to finish puttin' some music from CD's into my iTunes... Once I'm done with that I'll be off to bed.. To get about 4 hrs of sleep.. -_- BUT!! I can totally sleep once I'm all done with classes tomorrow if I need... [: 'Cuz if I do get to see Shelbi, I could also nap with her! Which would just make me sleep that much better ^-^

BTW-- I just finished off an energy drinks I'd had from earlier... So I'm anticipating crazy dreams. Typically, when I sleep after drinking energy drinks, I have the STRANGEST dreams!!! So! If I do dream, and remember my dreams, I may let you in on these little adventures of my sleep... [:

One last thing... -_- I'm really worried about this thing that I've been thinkin' about... I've talked about it plenty of times with plenty of people in my life.. But now that it's so close... And available... I'm kinda nervous, worried, maybe even scared a litte..? /: But.. On the other hand... I'm over-joyed.. And anxious.. Excited... It's a big flurry of emotions... And I'm not really sure how I'll handle it when my time runs out... }: Oh well.... Guess there's no real way to prepare for this... I'll deal with it...

Alright my friends. This is my farewell. My eyes are kinda bleeding.... I wanna sleep... [What??????] Yep.. It's true... :P

Peace.. -_-

Leave The Chocolate Here

Finally!!! The time has come for my promise to be carried out!! I shall finally let out the pics of my Labor Day Weekend!! Well, the ones I took with my phone at least.... More may be coming in the near future... [;

Here's the water... :P Plain and simple.. It looked ishy :l

Here's more water... And part of the dock I was standing

when I took these day photos!!! :D It like... Had turns and

Stuff.... Tehe.. [:

I thought this looked really nice.. Just lookin'

out across the water.. c:


I liked that cloud.. ;P It seemed pretty secluded
from the other larger clouds.. /:

And this was just another really nice view of another cloud

I happened to see.. [:

:o This made me think of the 1st HP movie when I saw how it

turned out after takin' the pic.. :D

That's a cobweb [: Outside of the bathrooms.. It was a

huge web!! But you can't really tell from the pic.. ]:

Here's some pictures of the fire

Heh.. [; This is where we sat at night when it was REALLY cold.. I slept outside one of those nights, and after the fire went out I had to wrap up in like... 3 blankets ;P lol

This is one of the candles we lit... :P

I liked it.. Not really. But I wanted

to see how it would look on camera

[:

These are some flowers we had on our

picnic table.. I used a flash light so I could

take the picture.. Heheh [:

A rock!!! It looks pretty small actually..

In the picture..? But it was actually like..

my size almost :o I hid behind and scared

my little sister.. Shhh! [:

Aaaaand that was the speed limit through
the camp grounds [: I broke the law whenever

I would run through 'cuz 5 miles an hour is

REALLY slow -_-

This is the sign, outside the bathrooms ;P

I thought it was funny that they had to put

that outside the area with toilets and showers.

I spose they weren't so much worried about a

fire as the smell lingerin'... There were NO windows

in those restrooms. So all the steam built up and stuff...

:P

This is the playset at the McDonald's we ate at

before leaving the town where the camp was by [:

The playset didn't have the normal rules restricting

older people from running around inside. Sooo...

I relived some childhood memories [:

Another view.. From INSIDE the playset

:D

And again... :P

And me, creepin' on my little sister goin' down

the slide.. :P Then I chased her down and stole her

toy [; Just kiddin'... [:

And that's part of my Labor Day Weekend for you!! :D Once I get those other pics, I can put them up and tell you all 'bout my kayakin' adventures!!! :D

Welp. Homework time :P I need to start doin' this crap sooner.. -_- Ah well... I got to be with Shelbi all day.. [: And Elias (: And I'm gonna get to see Shelbi tomorrow too!! :D Hopefully she actually comes down here... Then we could actually get some decent time alone together... [; A'ight...

Peace out friends [:

Night Side Of Abduction

I have class in... about 4 hours. And I still have to do the incredibly stupid essay for it... -_- Luckily!! I've got coffee, some new energy drink, and prolly a few other techniques I can imply in order to stay awake to write it, go to my classes, go to work, AND hang out with Shelbi.. That last won't won't be very difficult.. ^.^ Anywho.. Essays, right? Duuumb. It made no sense what we're supposed to do...

---Make a timeline. A literacy timeline, wtf that means, of 6 events and turn them into a 450 word story. Ummm.. OK..?

1] How the hell am I supposed to tie 6 'random' events from my life into a story about the evolution of my literary process..?

2] How the hell am I supposed to get said-6-random-events into a mere 450 word story?? OK, OK. The minimum is 450, but honestly, I'm not that dedicated to this class A.T.M. :l

Ugh.

On a happier note... I am hanging out with Shelbi tomorrow! Err.. Today..? :D Which meanss.... Jordynn will prolly get to meet her when we go to FPF [: And I'll be with her! ^-^

On a less happy note... I have to work from 12-9 on Saturday.. -_- Goddddd, kill me.

.........Actually, it'd be fine if you didn't...? [: ?

Welp. Time to synch up my iPod, listen to some music, down my energy sources, and get to workin' on that piece of bull!! P: Blech.

Peace Out.




P.S. - I finally learned how to solve a 2x2x2 Rubik's [Ice] Cube.. Actually, this thing is harder than it looks.. {Heh.. That's what she said... [; or was it what he said..? Hmmm.... }


PEACE. For real this time.... P:

Note to Self : Anti-Depressants do WONDERS! :D