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Through the Back.

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Sometimes things never change. Sometimes everything changes. Sometimes it's all the same, changing and the same all at once. I find this hindering to a life. Whatevs.

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I was led to believe that I was friends with certain people. So, when one of these people told me of a dilemma, I sympathized. Against the better judgement I'd had for the past few months. But then they decided to go and blame me for their incident because, apparantly, I'm an 'asshole and a stoner.' Hahah! Wow... Obviously that person is the asshole and stoner, 'cuz they're blatantly being a fucker, and obviously very misled in what they believe. Whatever. This is why I drop these kinds of people from my life. Anyone with 'em--- Don't need it. I'm not a part of this ridiculous drama anymore. It's nice to see you people from time to time; I have no part of your lives. You don't want me in them, I don't want to be in them, we're all good.

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In other news--- I'm having a spectacualr life! :D I've got alot of cool friends down here at college! I've been gettin' some good hours in for work, regardless of the bullshit that happens in that department of my life. I'm gettin' back up there with my homework.. :P Aaaaand.... Of course---

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Shelbi [: Idk... She's just so... wonderful. She's so perfect for me. She's a normal person. She's just like everyone else, except that she's just like me ^.^ More than anyone I've ever met.. Even Elias!! :o I know, right?? But yes. Her and I get closer EXPONENTIALLY everyday. We talk about everything on our minds.. Even when I don't wanna talk about things.. When Zoey and I dated, she would always ask me what was wrong and I would NEVER tell her, but... I dunno.. I feel like I can just trust Shelbi not to get upset or think I'm stupid or anything like that!!! Everything between her and I is absolutely incredible. I've never felt so right with someone in my life before [: Coincidentally--- Since I first met Shelbi, I've never felt like I belonged with someone more than her. Which!!! Brings me to a nice revelation!

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Zoey Groman. As most know, I was completely caught up in her. In honesty, though, alot of things happened during that relationship. Things that no one knows about. 'Cept for me and Elias. And other people involved. Just 'cuz Elias is the only person I ever told. Not to sound like I went around and just cheated on Zoey or somethin' all over the place. Just. Stuff that truly showed how fuckin' unstable that relationship was. Now, even through all the shit that happened with that chick, I still felt as if I was MEANT to be with her. And, now, I realize I was. Just not meant to be with her INDEFINITELY. If it wasn't for Zoey, I would've never been so perfectly fit for Shelbi [: Zoey got me into alot of things that fit me so well to my darling. Converse, bands, stuff like that. In fact, every MAJOR relationship I've been in, I've felt as if I was MEANT to be with those people. Zoey. Chantelle. Steph. Cassie. Ashley. But, I WAS meant to be with them. I was meant to be with them so they could help me become the person that could fit so well in the end with Shelbi.

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So!! I must say that I am extremely thankful to those people that helped me become who I am!!! Even if one of them absolutely hates me :D Ah well!

Anywho... I've gotta get at least ONE essay out today :P Plus I got my SI for the Soc. Prob. Exam #1 tonight!!!!!!! Gotta be ready for that thing tomorrow!!!

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*Peace*

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'I'll wait for you there, like a stone. I'll wait for you there alone.'

Drowsy, Bloody, Crazy

Welp. Looks like I'll be off to bed soon. Did some of that work I had to do.. Then lookin' over my stuff, I see that it looks like I forgot to get something turned in on Friday that was due... -_- I don't even know at this point.. Honestly. English is giving me more trouble than any other class. I typicaly enjoy English, but I really can't wait to be done with that class...

So.. I'm tryin' to finish puttin' some music from CD's into my iTunes... Once I'm done with that I'll be off to bed.. To get about 4 hrs of sleep.. -_- BUT!! I can totally sleep once I'm all done with classes tomorrow if I need... [: 'Cuz if I do get to see Shelbi, I could also nap with her! Which would just make me sleep that much better ^-^

BTW-- I just finished off an energy drinks I'd had from earlier... So I'm anticipating crazy dreams. Typically, when I sleep after drinking energy drinks, I have the STRANGEST dreams!!! So! If I do dream, and remember my dreams, I may let you in on these little adventures of my sleep... [:

One last thing... -_- I'm really worried about this thing that I've been thinkin' about... I've talked about it plenty of times with plenty of people in my life.. But now that it's so close... And available... I'm kinda nervous, worried, maybe even scared a litte..? /: But.. On the other hand... I'm over-joyed.. And anxious.. Excited... It's a big flurry of emotions... And I'm not really sure how I'll handle it when my time runs out... }: Oh well.... Guess there's no real way to prepare for this... I'll deal with it...

Alright my friends. This is my farewell. My eyes are kinda bleeding.... I wanna sleep... [What??????] Yep.. It's true... :P

Peace.. -_-

Night Side Of Abduction

I have class in... about 4 hours. And I still have to do the incredibly stupid essay for it... -_- Luckily!! I've got coffee, some new energy drink, and prolly a few other techniques I can imply in order to stay awake to write it, go to my classes, go to work, AND hang out with Shelbi.. That last won't won't be very difficult.. ^.^ Anywho.. Essays, right? Duuumb. It made no sense what we're supposed to do...

---Make a timeline. A literacy timeline, wtf that means, of 6 events and turn them into a 450 word story. Ummm.. OK..?

1] How the hell am I supposed to tie 6 'random' events from my life into a story about the evolution of my literary process..?

2] How the hell am I supposed to get said-6-random-events into a mere 450 word story?? OK, OK. The minimum is 450, but honestly, I'm not that dedicated to this class A.T.M. :l

Ugh.

On a happier note... I am hanging out with Shelbi tomorrow! Err.. Today..? :D Which meanss.... Jordynn will prolly get to meet her when we go to FPF [: And I'll be with her! ^-^

On a less happy note... I have to work from 12-9 on Saturday.. -_- Goddddd, kill me.

.........Actually, it'd be fine if you didn't...? [: ?

Welp. Time to synch up my iPod, listen to some music, down my energy sources, and get to workin' on that piece of bull!! P: Blech.

Peace Out.




P.S. - I finally learned how to solve a 2x2x2 Rubik's [Ice] Cube.. Actually, this thing is harder than it looks.. {Heh.. That's what she said... [; or was it what he said..? Hmmm.... }


PEACE. For real this time.... P:

Monster And A Transfer [Struck Down]

Well. Here it is. The new blog [: Feels like a new home, or a new friend. I find this particularly fitting considering I've moved on to so many new things in my life. College, friends, lifestyles, Shelbi... [: Ahh.. This feels fresh. It feels good. Great.. Spectacular :D

I find moving on always must include moving AWAY from things as well. This is a secondary reason of why I had chose to put in a new blog. I've done so in order to move away from stupid bitches and whores that were deciding to read my blog, somewhat religiously in an extremely creepy and annoying way, and then proceeding to blog about me themselves, making uneducated biases of me, or trying to interpret my blog as applying to them, though none of them were any concern to me. These people used to be people I cared for; old friends. But they all changed. Whatevs. I've got so many new people now ^.^

Shelbi; Teheh... [:

Brian; He's a real rad guy I have in a couple of my theater classes, a fellow Theater Major

Mike; A real bad-ass guy of a roommate

Aannd plenty of other new people! ^.^

Anywho... As promised (how many times now?) my NEXT post shall consist of my labor day weekend and other fun things [:

BTW--- I'd really, really, REALLY appreciate it if people would comment on my posts.. [: I won't be all drastic and stuff and demand people like, comment on EVERYTHING, but it's just really nice getting input and other such things from people, letting me know what they think of things [: So, if any of you ever feel like commenting.. PLEASE do! :D

A'ight. Nazi Zombie time [;

Peaceeee