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Sometimes things never change. Sometimes everything changes. Sometimes it's all the same, changing and the same all at once. I find this hindering to a life. Whatevs.
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I was led to believe that I was friends with certain people. So, when one of these people told me of a dilemma, I sympathized. Against the better judgement I'd had for the past few months. But then they decided to go and blame me for their incident because, apparantly, I'm an 'asshole and a stoner.' Hahah! Wow... Obviously that person is the asshole and stoner, 'cuz they're blatantly being a fucker, and obviously very misled in what they believe. Whatever. This is why I drop these kinds of people from my life. Anyone with 'em--- Don't need it. I'm not a part of this ridiculous drama anymore. It's nice to see you people from time to time; I have no part of your lives. You don't want me in them, I don't want to be in them, we're all good.
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In other news--- I'm having a spectacualr life! :D I've got alot of cool friends down here at college! I've been gettin' some good hours in for work, regardless of the bullshit that happens in that department of my life. I'm gettin' back up there with my homework.. :P Aaaaand.... Of course---
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Shelbi [: Idk... She's just so... wonderful. She's so perfect for me. She's a normal person. She's just like everyone else, except that she's just like me ^.^ More than anyone I've ever met.. Even Elias!! :o I know, right?? But yes. Her and I get closer EXPONENTIALLY everyday. We talk about everything on our minds.. Even when I don't wanna talk about things.. When Zoey and I dated, she would always ask me what was wrong and I would NEVER tell her, but... I dunno.. I feel like I can just trust Shelbi not to get upset or think I'm stupid or anything like that!!! Everything between her and I is absolutely incredible. I've never felt so right with someone in my life before [: Coincidentally--- Since I first met Shelbi, I've never felt like I belonged with someone more than her. Which!!! Brings me to a nice revelation!
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Zoey Groman. As most know, I was completely caught up in her. In honesty, though, alot of things happened during that relationship. Things that no one knows about. 'Cept for me and Elias. And other people involved. Just 'cuz Elias is the only person I ever told. Not to sound like I went around and just cheated on Zoey or somethin' all over the place. Just. Stuff that truly showed how fuckin' unstable that relationship was. Now, even through all the shit that happened with that chick, I still felt as if I was MEANT to be with her. And, now, I realize I was. Just not meant to be with her INDEFINITELY. If it wasn't for Zoey, I would've never been so perfectly fit for Shelbi [: Zoey got me into alot of things that fit me so well to my darling. Converse, bands, stuff like that. In fact, every MAJOR relationship I've been in, I've felt as if I was MEANT to be with those people. Zoey. Chantelle. Steph. Cassie. Ashley. But, I WAS meant to be with them. I was meant to be with them so they could help me become the person that could fit so well in the end with Shelbi.
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So!! I must say that I am extremely thankful to those people that helped me become who I am!!! Even if one of them absolutely hates me :D Ah well!
Anywho... I've gotta get at least ONE essay out today :P Plus I got my SI for the Soc. Prob. Exam #1 tonight!!!!!!! Gotta be ready for that thing tomorrow!!!
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*Peace*
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'I'll wait for you there, like a stone. I'll wait for you there alone.'
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I have class in... about 4 hours. And I still have to do the incredibly stupid essay for it... -_- Luckily!! I've got coffee, some new energy drink, and prolly a few other techniques I can imply in order to stay awake to write it, go to my classes, go to work, AND hang out with Shelbi.. That last won't won't be very difficult.. ^.^ Anywho.. Essays, right? Duuumb. It made no sense what we're supposed to do...
